no work today slash absent today means more time to read, reflect, and review for the upcoming LET and do a little laundry. while i was studying this afternoon, i was so worried because my memory fails me. everything i studied before seemed to dissolve. i can’t focus on studying. worry and doubt filled my mind little by little. how can i pass the board exam? self review na nga lang ako, para pa akong may amnesia. my knowledge was never enough. and it looks like it would never be enough.
i feel like giving up already.
then as of this writing, i remembered a passage from matthew 6 i’ve read this morning, “seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness. and all these things shall be added unto you.”
true enough. more than anything i should seek Him first.
i can’t do things by myself. i can’t rely ONLY on my own strength. i need Him. Him first.
then this evening, my mom was asking for worship song suggestions as she was playing some on youtube. i suggested kari jobe’s steady my heart. while i was listening, a few lines struck me.
“I’m not gonna worry, I know that You’ve got me right inside the palm of your hand.”
ugh. it sank through me, and little by little, it steadied my heart. :’)
and in that note, i changed my lappy’s wallpaper with this,
to whoever that might read this, please pray for me for the upcoming LET this 17th of august. thank youuuuuuu.
I could look at you for hours and not get bored.
I could hold you in my arms with no intention of letting go.
You make me fall in love with your words.
You make my heart flutter with your every thought.
I could get my eyes glued on you for forever.
I could stay with you with no intention of leaving…ever.
Oh dear book. ♥
You’re my favorite go-to nook.
It isn’t a life of perfection,
But one that’s strengthened by life’s storms.
It isn’t a life full of smiles,
But one that’s sanctified by cries.
It doesn’t mean having many friends,
But having enough who’ll stick ‘til the end.
It isn’t having everything in the world,
But having a relationship with the God who owns the world.
A life worth living isn’t struggle-free,
But with purpose and meaning because of the Lord that sets us free.
Oh! Hi there guitar boy!
Tonight I am writing you a poem.
What should I say? I don’t know.
But maybe I’ll just let the words flow.
Less than two years ago I knew you existed,
And from then on you’ve been a mainstay in my head.
It all started when I listened to your song,
And ever since, I kept singing along.
Your words, your thoughts,
My mind and my heart they’ve caught.
Your voice, your guitar skills,
Oh they give me a diff kind of feels.
The way you sing is unlike the rest,
It’s so sincere from the heart I guess.
The way you strum your guitar’s so dreamy,
No wonder how many are caught in your beautiful melody.
For over a year you’re just a distant star,
And I’m one who just watches from afar.
Then one day something odd happened in the universe,
I met you face to face as I ran out of words.
You were more than what I saw in a dream,
With my very eyes I saw you gleam.
You were real…someone my hand could reach,
Like the shore and the ocean meeting at the beach.
And for a time I felt like I was your friend,
We had a few conversations I didn’t want to end.
'Til one day everything went on with the universe,
You went back to the sky as I join them stargazers.